Aftermath of Suicide

Gopi Sapkota

Poet Gopi Sapkota

I know

You will open my door slowly

With a mild fear

A bad smell will welcome you from inside

In a cold, dark and silent room

You will see a dead body

Lying on the floor

Amid the clots of dark blood

Yes, my friend

That’ll be me.

Blood and blood everywhere

Will clog, running through my wrist

Pierced last night with a blade

Few tools you will see on the ground

Blades and nails

Ropes and syringes

Poison and pills

Yes, I collected them to choose

A way to die in

People will try to find any note

Which I didn’t write

No clue why

I did commit suicide

I know

You will pick up my phone

Lying next to my body

You will read the last text I received

Yes, my friend,

It will be yours.

(Courtesy: A Suicide Note)

GOPI SAPKOTA, a poet and playwright from Nepal, currently lives in London. He writes mostly in Nepali and occasionally in English. He has eight books of poems and plays to his credit, including a collection of English poems 'A Suicide Note'. One of the most influential playwrights of Nepal, Sapkota was the founder director of Street Theater Group back in 1992. He has directed dozens of plays at various national as well as international venues like South Asian Theater Festival. He also writes children’s literature and co-edited Sunkeshra, a popular magazine for children in Nepal. He also served as Secretary of the Society of Nepali Writers in English from 2001 to 2007.